This Journey, The Fight.


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I’ve circled back,
To this moment again,
Rooted to this spot,
Waiting in vain.

Your eyes are shut tight,
You’re struggling to remember,
I look at you and miss,
That grey and dark November.

Such change is here,
Such distances are near,
The comfort of your words,
Has made way for its own fear.

Yes its the same story,
It is yet again, retold,
In silence we strive,
To smile in a life so cold.

It’s journey we’re meant to live,
Of stoic faith and solid hope,
It’s a test of courage,
Like when lovers elope.

At the end, sits a reality,
Meant only for the worthy,
Who’ve done their time,
Renounced pleasure, worldly.

It’s this life, here, right now,
Peace, quiet, and love  is all,
That’s left at the end of the fight,
To the finish line, even if you crawl.

Without You


Without You

What do I need from you,
Nothing much I guess,
Except perhaps a look,
Making me a mess.

What could I ask for,
What have you not given,
May just be a chance,
To forgive and be forgiven.

What can I possibly now say,
See, I’ve been around a while,
But I’m still looking for something,
That can just like that, make me smile.

Even now, when all is but over,
I just don’t know what to give,
To make us more beautiful,
That call out to us, to live.

What is still missing.
Between you and I,
That poems must remain,
The way you look in my eyes.

I don’t know what to say,
I don’t know what to do,
All I know, my love, is that,
Something’s missing, without you.

And Just Maybe…


Every so often you come and sit right in the middle of my mind. Every so often, I can only see every single moment I ever spent with you. Every so often I feel weak. Troubled. Tormented and harassed. Every so often. Every time I turn around I see a reminder of what I’ve lived through. Every time I see a boy and a girl walking together I see us. Or what used to be. Every time I drive down that street, I remember the conversation. I remember what I was to you and I’m sorry. Sorry that I was alive in a story that existed only in my head. Where you have taken up too much space for far too long. Its been a year since the masks fell. Its been a year of dragged steps towards a haunted healing and a haunted life. A year where I took two steps forwards and four steps back. Every so often, I feel sorry. I feel sorry for you and sorry for me. I feel sorry for all that couldn’t be. Maybe its a story of two different people, not us. Maybe its all just a story conjured in my head. Maybe. Maybe I was meant to be without you from the very first. Maybe,  just maybe, you were right. Maybe I’m the best that I could be, without you.

Love Is A Game.


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I want so much,
I want to change everything,
I’d live my life trying,
To live all we wish to live.

You talk to me,
I listen to each word,
All along the way,
Just trying to understand you.

When I look at you,
You look back and smile,
You ask me what’s the matter,
I’m happy you’re here this time.

All that we want,
We want it so life’s richer,
Richer in character and challenges,
Richer so its worth living.

Playing along with each other,
We cover life’s grounds together,
You teach me what it means to long,
Long for something so divine.

We fight today,
To keep our wits sharp,
We press each other’s buttons,
To just challenge the other’s heart.

This game carries on,
Till the day we change the rules,
You know we belong in the world,
Where Love is the Best Game.

Heaven’s Gates


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Everything has changed,
Radically different lives,
Radically different people,
As if I look upon the world from a steeple.

Heart’s change their beat,
Eyes change their color,
With every step I change the course,
Of my journey, with brute force.

Standing in the distance is our past,
Reminding us of times long gone,
When we wanted to run to our now,
And today we stand here wondering how.

How did the paths change,
Twist upon themselves,
And bring us here,
Leave us wondering if anyone is near.

But I see just you in my eyes,
A little brighter today,
A reflection of us alone,
Just so in my heart you fit.

Our lives melt together,
Like a kaleidoscopic mirror,
We see the world go by,
Like watching the clouds against the sky.

Archaic change constantly haunts,
We fall in step with life,
Holding hands we’ll walk to one side,
Weathering the storm, rain and the tide.

Like those stories we heard,
Of the happily ever afters,
We will live them with stubborn resolve,
Until fate’s stoic resistance dissolves.

Wait for me, and I shall follow,
Follow you into the love,
At the end of time that waits,
Welcomes us, at Heaven’ Gates.

A New Love is Born


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Face covered with my hands,
I look at you through my fingers,
A glint of mischief in my eyes,
The kinds that on your lips lingers.

A coy smile I throw,
Across the room at you,
You slowly walk towards me,
Make me feel something new.

Your warmth trickles down,
Right down to my toes,
This is nothing less than magic,
Magic or love, who knows.

Whoever you are,
And wherever you’re going,
You are here right now,
And that’s all that’s worth knowing.

A projection of my subconscious,
Or a figment of my imagination,
These moments to me are real,
They are the object of my affection.

In a cloud I exist,
On a cloud I seem to walk,
When you are with me,
The world just seems to stop.

Miss me, do you?
When I am not around?
Do you miss this freedom too,
In us that we have found?

Talk to me tonight,
About everything under the sun,
I will listen to your story,
As if it were a prize I’d won.

Tomorrow is so far,
So much further from now,
Life is now, live a little,
Love will show you how.

This life is long,
So much longer alone,
Stay with me,
Let a new love be born.

 

 

By Your Side


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Weary and wasted,
Is how I feel tonight,
And when I see you,
I lose the tired fight.

The light in the room,
It shines brighter,
For you’re there with me,
And my heart feels lighter.

I feel like me,
Just because you with me walk,
The way you look at me,
And the way your eyes talk.

The world seems happier,
When I look at you smile,
Though we’ve walked,
Together mile after mile.

I pray to God today,
That for as long as I’m alive,
And even when I’m gone,
May my love always be by your side.

Two Can Play That Game


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In my mind’s eye I see,
A life of compounded complexity,
Days in each other collide,
In no one can I now confide.

Running through life,
Leaving all behind,
Yet waiting for you,
All this I wish you knew.

On the sidelines of my life,
I stand and look at myself,
All I can see in my heart,
Is the longing for a fresh start.

In the blink of an eye,
All the colors change,
And once again I’m lost,
And my heart’s encased in frost.

Friends have fallen away,
Foes have taken me in their embrace,
Family seems to flee,
And I want you with me.

Life is shorter than I thought,
Seems like just yesterday,
Was our story’s start,
When nothing could keep us apart.

Blessed be our younger selves,
For wiser still they had been,
To pause and drink in the love,
Their minds as free as a dove.

As I walk away from the memory,
Step after step in a new direction,
I wish it was towards you that I came,
Just so you know, two can play that game.

I Wonder


All my life will go by,
I will exist in your world,
Will you see me standing,
Right by your side?

You will have made promises,
Of solidarity and love,
If to me alone or to many,
I wonder if you’ll remember.

I don’t know who you are yet,
But one day when i will,
Will you be the same,
Or will the mask fall away?

I look strong and brave,
In my love and sacrifices,
I wonder if you’ll see,
If you’ll understand my weakness.

I see myself in your eyes,
Do your eyes voice your heart,
Or do I see a reflection,
Of only my own desires?

As the beat of the music changes,
The rhythm makes my feet move,
I fall in step with you,
I wonder if its you or the song.

Today, I’m but a girl,
Tomorrow, I will be a woman,
Will you understand the difference,
And love me, I wonder.

Walking Away


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Days have gone by since,
Since we sat hand in hand,
Since we spoke into the night,
Since we walked in the sand.

You took me surprise,
As you said you’ll be by my side,
I could only watch in wonder,
As the world seemed to hide.

Things have changed now,
You’re apprehensive,
About what we have,
You’re so defensive.

Intimidated by the intimacy,
Afraid of the light,
Unfortunately it isn’t me,
Who you seem to be with in a fight.

We don’t talk about us anymore,
We talk in dialogues of blames,
Friends and enemies the same,
Who just play nasty games.

You and I were walking together,
Or such was what I had thought,
But my naivety be damned,
Now it turns out we’re not.

But i’m happy to walk away,
I know how bad hearts can ache,
I’m happy to be your friend,
Unlike lovers, friends are never fake.

So I’ll sit with you still,
And live along with you each day,
I’ll kill my heart,
As I’m walking away.