More Than Words


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The clock strikes the hour once again,
The bells toll in their towers,
Once again that moment is back,
When the world seemed to lose all its powers.

Once again I’m back to that night,
When I heard her voice break into a million bits,
When the winds blew once and changed all I knew,
No piece of our life, went back to where it fits.

I miss you today, more than I can say,
I miss your smile more than anything,
Compassion designed every word you said,
You built me up, taught me how to sing.

Everything, every single thing,
Has changed itself over since,
You left and left broken hearts in your wake,
Nothing is same my friend, hence.

You’re at peace, that I know,
I know you’re here too,
I know you’re the voice in my head,
I know my Ogre, I know its you.

Let’s take a ride on your bike again,
Let’s see the brilliance of the light,
Let’s eat all that we can find,
Let’s, for old times sake, let’s fight.

I can never do you justice,
Through my words or my thoughts alone,
I couldn’t ever do you justice,
You’re far greater than anyone I’ve known.

I wish you would come back,
And make everything right again,
You’ve left behind a legacy,
Of great heart, love and pain.

I miss you, that’s all I can say,
More than I can say, I miss you,
I miss my friend, I miss us,
Rest In Peace, in the heaven’s blue.

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Soldier of Love.


So I was thinking about us the other day,

Was on my way back from work,

This is what I had always dreamed of,

For us, this job was only another perk.

 

I’d fought for a while now,

And you’d help me gear up,

For the battle of convention,

Was no storm in a teacup.

 

You and I together hustled,

To overcome this last hurdle,

Lest we anger or upset,

The hand that rocks the cradle..

 

Right before we reached the finishing line,

In the last leg of this race,

I stumbled and fell over my feet,

And you silently backed away from the disgrace.

 

Shocked as I am on my own misjudgment,

A little voice in my head chants,

That it takes two to tango,

To master it, we’d worked hard as ants.

 

Feel as lonely as does an island,

In this world of targets and goals,

You were always my only aim,

Now saying your name is like swallowing coals.

 

I’m deafened by the screaming voices,

That rile up my silent mind,

Whenever I think about our downfall,

I wonder if it was fate being cruel or kind.

 

We’re only human, is what I tell myself,

Trying to justify and comprehend,

This is beyond me as well,

I tried desperately, but failed to make amends.

 

Enough is enough, the reader must say,

This woman is quite obsessed,

Either in love with the pain or its cause,

I’d say both have me equally possessed.

 

Just a bit of a warning to you love,

I just might be on to your plan,

Your next steps I might have guessed,

You’ve failed the test of a true man.

 

Forgiveness is at the very heart of love,

I wonder where your’s went for a walk,

We forgave and always forgot,

Tell me, were those promises just written in chalk?

 

This and all else I did for you,

My city, home, life et all,

You found it surprisingly easy to retreat,

Maybe you couldn’t hear the crash of my fall.

 

Since what you pushed for,

You don’t want anymore,

I shall find another who does,

And let your love be washed ashore.

 

Be careful what you wish for,

Is a lesson well learnt from you,

Your mad dash from a wish’s realization,

Has given me a well needed clue.

 

One that I have studied and filed away,

If you ever return to me in the future,

I’ll remember this fact and brace myself,

That heartache is your regular feature.

 

I thought I was giving us a part of our dreams,

Who knew your life’s ambition never lied with me,

All my sweat and blood amounted to nothing,

I guess sacrifice in any form aint your cuppa tea.

 

I bid farewell to us today sweetheart,

May my silence be your constant companion,

I’ll keep just this pain with me,

Just another soldier in my personal battalion.

The Ugly Truth.


It’s been raining for days now,

I’ve been waiting all this time,

For someone to show me the sun,

For that to come back, which is mine.

 

In the bottomless sea of sorrow i drown,

Wasted limbs, and a wasted life,

Weigh me down into the deep,

And i succumb to the stab of your knife.

 

This pain has met me before,

But never with such unforgiving violence,

I have no fear, or fight left in me now,

And so i give in, in silence.

 

Is it me, or is cold in this furnace?

The fire of your words, has left me frozen,

The more i insist, the more determined you are,

So a path in life, without me, you seem to have chosen.

 

I begged and pleaded to you, my dear,

Knowing that the folly is mine, and you are giving me what i asked,

To forgive me for not being brave enough,

To face what was always in my heart.

 

Two pieces of me there now exist,

One went with you, incomplete but at peace,

The other demands for retribution against itself,

And from its own life sentence, release.

 

Love, can be so bloody daunting,

It makes you dance to its wicked song,

Untill you can’t live without the bittersweet pain,

And then it goes away, taking all that is you along.

 

You will continue to care, i know,

But my words will hold you back,

I will continue to hurt, I know,

In the onslaught of your silent attack.

 

I’ve put you through a lot, my love,

Your time to rest has arrived,

It couldn’t have been easy to be with me,

What with my arrogance and foolish pride.

 

I have paid the price for my deeds,

In more ways that you should know about,

And if being away from you wasn’t bad enough,

Myself too, now I must live without.

 

Strange the way heartbreak will eat at you,

Alone in a busy and bustling crowd,

With friends who search for the girl they knew,

And suffocated alone, in your home’s lonely shroud.

 

Tears flow freely and unannounced,

Memories get sharper, with each passing day,

You said, it’ll get easier, let time work its magic,

I guess you were wrong, true love goes the other way.

 

Whenever and if you wish to return,

You’ll find my doors wide open,

I’ll still be waiting, like I am today,

But you’ll find me even more broken.

 

I’ll refrain from calling you back,

For the girl you loved has long since passed,

At least the pain of death ends eventually,

The ugly truth of your absence, will remain always, unasked.

A Thought…


Its her wandering mind and restless soul…
Heart in decay, black as coal.

The self she sees in the mirror,
The sad owner, of this error.

Calm on the outside, a violent storm within,
This boat’s arocking, waves crashin’ in.

Nowhere to run, and none to hide,
She drowns along her love and pride…