Two Can Play That Game


love hate relationship

In my mind’s eye I see,
A life of compounded complexity,
Days in each other collide,
In no one can I now confide.

Running through life,
Leaving all behind,
Yet waiting for you,
All this I wish you knew.

On the sidelines of my life,
I stand and look at myself,
All I can see in my heart,
Is the longing for a fresh start.

In the blink of an eye,
All the colors change,
And once again I’m lost,
And my heart’s encased in frost.

Friends have fallen away,
Foes have taken me in their embrace,
Family seems to flee,
And I want you with me.

Life is shorter than I thought,
Seems like just yesterday,
Was our story’s start,
When nothing could keep us apart.

Blessed be our younger selves,
For wiser still they had been,
To pause and drink in the love,
Their minds as free as a dove.

As I walk away from the memory,
Step after step in a new direction,
I wish it was towards you that I came,
Just so you know, two can play that game.

Soulless.


Deep inside who I am,
There’s a reverberation rising,
Its unease spreading itself,
Inside who I am.

Such shivers run,
Up and down my spine,
Born from the unrest,
That in me runs.

Stumbling along the path,
Life has brought me here,
Where there’s no end,
Or beginning to my path.

I’m inching towards the edge,
A bit more every day,
You push me so bad,
That I just go over the edge.

We play this game,
Of the tug of war,
This is pure evil,
It a game no more.

Let me be,
Let me breathe,
When I walk away,
Just let me be.

Because I’ll fight,
To save me from you,
To keep the faith alive in me,
To keep me- I will fight.

No room for the soulless,
In this world or anywhere else,
You’ll find the truth of you,
But not while you’re this soulless.

Watch You From Above.


So this is how it happened,

This was just a ploy,

A spineless being, aren’t you,

And I was nothing but your toy.

 

Blithely unaware I lived,

For years and years and years,

And this now is my punishment,

To see the reality of all my fears.

 

So many answers this day has brought,

That I was nothing but a fool,

Why I was always so hot and bothered,

And you nonchalant and cool.

 

Swathed in realizations bitter blanket,

I hope this heat engulfs me here and now,

Your darkness has left me lost,

I’ve lost my sense of what, why and how.

 

The girl who stood at the station,

Impatiently waiting for you to arrive,

Is turning away from herself now,

Kill the love now, it must not survive.

 

The days I spent creating,

A palace out of thin air,

Now just a waste of time and heart,

My soul tells tales of this game, unfair.

 

The End has finally arrived,

You think what you’ve done is right,

Even her name sounds like mine,

You watch yourself now fight this fight.

 

In your darkest hours my thought will haunt,

You wont breathe without my name in your head,

Its this fate you’ve brought upon yourself,

And more pain to the world you have fed.

 

There is plenty that I hid from you as well,

But my heart remained true, as did my love,

You’ve forgotten the gods and Karma,

While I weep away, they watch you from above.

I Fly Alone.


There’s such anarchy within,
There’s a war just waiting to begin,
Blindfold on, I forge ahead,
I wont retreat, I’ll fight instead.

Breath caught in my chest,
Trying to carry on like I know best,
I pray everyday for the arrival of change,
Being in my skin, now too feels strange.

I remember those long bed time stories,
Of witches, warlocks and pretty fairies,
What lies and false pictures we are fed,
The cause of the miserable lives we’ve led.

More like me, I’m sure there must be,
Hiding somewhere, or displaying their misery,
The bliss of ignorance now a lost pleasure,
Of the emptiness inside, there can be no measure.

Lives spent waiting for a knight,
Unaware, we’re in the Devils’s line of sight,
Falling in love with enemy head on,
Hearts broken, bruised and beyond.

Does everyone break the way I do?
Does pain spare even a few?
I see broken hearts in every corner,
Each one of us, our own mourner.

Twinkling eyes, now look dulled,
Emotions lie killed, senses lulled,
An elite club we make, don’t we?
Of ghosts, ghouls and zombies.

My brethren is the undead,
My companion dark dread,
But I still soldier on regardless,
The will to go on, relentless.

I promise myself one simple thing,
I’ll never take another in my wing,
Call it what you will, this heart is made of stone,
From this his time on,  I fly alone.

Twisted Games.


The fun and games are over,

Now we’re back home alone,

A sea of silence stands between us,

So much left unsaid, & I’m coming undone.

 

In the distance I see our past,

Like a blurry old picture, faded,

I kick off my shoes, tired of the fight,

You crash on the couch, eyes shaded.

 

Let’s talk you say, from the shadows,

Walking over coals I come to you,

While you patiently scrape open each wound,

Each word you say tears me into two.

 

Every dawn brings me such courage,

That I welcome your pain with a smile,

There’s only so much you can fight the fates,

In my arms, you find our love, docile.

 

The calls of the past are too loud,

They pull at my heart,  too strong,

I’m taking you down with me boy,

You’ve been winning for far too long.

 

Let the healing begin already,

Let me help you some,

You can mend me a little too,

After all, I’m your only one.

 

I still see that light in your eyes,

Caught your fib, you little liar you,

Nothing has really changed,

You’re still mine, nothing new.

 

I’ll let you be cruel this once,

I owe you  some vindication,

But lemme know once you’re done,

I gotta resolve this altercation.

 

Throw caution to the winds soldier,

Take a chance on yourself this time,

Playing it safe isn’t our style,

Take a risk, its worth losing a dime.

 

Even now, the first word on your mind,

After all this while is but my name,

Join me  beyond time and space,

As we play together, this twisted game.