And as i fall deeper and deeper in love, you pull me back into the dark abyss of make believe. You make up fables that i believe and lose my mind over the reality of you and i. The weak heart that lives in me, so eager to surrender, knows not your stealthy ways. Exhumed in the sea of my karma, my soul rests in waiting. Waiting for an awakening from its dreams of the idea of you. Oh heart, you show me visions of a life I’ve lived once and left behind. The very visions of a life i’m yet to live. So vivid your colors in my mind’s eye, I’m delirious with you just a breath away. I’m out of breath for you’re stealing my very life blood through your touch. Faith, you and I must walk these roads together, and Hope must lead the way. I’m but a paradoxical being, lost and found by many, but belong to none. There are desires that beckon hesitantly to me, I walk to them and hold them close to my heart. A day will arrive and carry me with my heart on my sleeve. The day the sun will shine just for me and engulf me in its golden warmth. For love and nothing but it, will I breathe then. For love and nothing but love.
A quiet night, the usual silence,
Struggling with my internal violence,
Stiffly I lay, upon my bed,
Enough’s been heard, way too much said.
Thinking of us, is my nightly ritual,
Ironically, it feels almost spiritual,
To analyze our divine creation,
My personal brand of drug addiction.
I take heart from the light within,
Every new breath feels like a win,
Each day they say, is a small victory,
But to my purpose, survival is contradictory.
Just like the pages of a book,
Our story needs a deeper look,
It doesn’t flow, the way it ends,
The author needs to make amends.
Every night before I sleep,
Memories rush forth, and I weep,
Clarity grows with passing time,
Of those old days, so divine.
This road led to another direction,
Now the destination is the intent’s reflection,
Inverted and distorted it all feels,
With agony and pain, my mind reels.
Its been too long since I took a break,
My dedication to us, did not flake,
So be it, that you are not around,
I’ll suffer your silence and bear your rebound.
This door shall always been open,
You’ll just find my spirit a little broken,
The pain shall greet you as well,
You must forget the past, don’t dwell.
A girl here, for you is waiting,
Her silence may be a little misleading,
A little more time and space for you,
You need not now, wait for a cue.
But should your mind still be in a fix,
Take your time, break the hex,
Love means not having to give a reason,
I’ll wait for you, through every season.
These are the words I leave you with,
We are real, true love’s no myth,
Close your eyes, you’ll see me clearly,
I’ve never before, missed you so dearly.