Walls


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I lay brick over brick,
Laboriously I build,
Walls so tall around me,
So no one around can see.

I paint myself invisible,
I hide myself away,
Behind those walls, so mighty,
So no one can touch me, even slightly.

I welcome the night,
It brings with it the darkness,
A blanket, if you will,
Under which I can lie, still.

It’s not my fears,
That make me look away,
It’s the pain of my misery,
It’s us, and our history.

It’s the walking away,
It’s the breaking of hearts,
It’s how you tore me down,
Turned every smile to a frown.

It’s these walls alone,
That can keep me safe,
Away from the eyes,
Away from a love that dies.

I build these walls,
Brick by each brick,
To keep myself hidden,
To save me from the anarchy within.

Forgive & Forget


I wrench my heart,
I expose my soul,
My being has become,
Black as coal.

You look at me,
You’re scared, yes?
You can’t look away,
You’re a bit of a mess.

I saw the truth,
That you ran away from,
I made it mine,
Stood in the eye of the storm.

You look at me,
Trying to find your friend,
But after the cards you played,
I’m afraid it’s our end.

I’ve wrenched my heart,
And now I’m cold,
So I find the will,
To throw out the old.

I twisted my soul,
And now I don’t care,
About you and your fears,
Your substance lies bare.

Walk away now,
While you have a chance
A few lessons wait for you,
Karma does its wicked dance.

I promise you this,
Through all the pain and the sweat,
I’ll walk away smiling,
I will forgive & I will forget.

 

Heaven’s Gates


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Everything has changed,
Radically different lives,
Radically different people,
As if I look upon the world from a steeple.

Heart’s change their beat,
Eyes change their color,
With every step I change the course,
Of my journey, with brute force.

Standing in the distance is our past,
Reminding us of times long gone,
When we wanted to run to our now,
And today we stand here wondering how.

How did the paths change,
Twist upon themselves,
And bring us here,
Leave us wondering if anyone is near.

But I see just you in my eyes,
A little brighter today,
A reflection of us alone,
Just so in my heart you fit.

Our lives melt together,
Like a kaleidoscopic mirror,
We see the world go by,
Like watching the clouds against the sky.

Archaic change constantly haunts,
We fall in step with life,
Holding hands we’ll walk to one side,
Weathering the storm, rain and the tide.

Like those stories we heard,
Of the happily ever afters,
We will live them with stubborn resolve,
Until fate’s stoic resistance dissolves.

Wait for me, and I shall follow,
Follow you into the love,
At the end of time that waits,
Welcomes us, at Heaven’ Gates.

Darkness in Disguise


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At the speed of light,
This  puzzle is changing,
In a moment alone,
The shadows are fading.

Strength seeps back,
Into my hands and into my heart,
I suddenly see the truth,
All but clouded from the start.

Slow but sure am I,
As I begin to conceive,
Healing is contentment,
In the lessons we receive.

Some dreams that shattered,
Were just the blessing,
I couldn’t see beyond the tears then,
Mea Culpa, I am now confessing.

Leaving behind the many follies,
I ask for almighty’s kind forgiveness,
May today fairness be mine,
Interspersed with some happiness.

I’ll carry my lessons with me,
Bravely decorated with them I’ll live,
My badge of honor they shall be,
Until there’s nothing left to forgive.

One day when you will arrive,
You’ll hold my hand and sit beside,
We’ll know the truth and dream together,
Wont ever let that faith subside.

Love is designed to be crazy
Life is nothing without a fight,
Being with you is enough,
All I could want, if I might.

I came to you broken,
You fixed me and made me right,
Heartbreak is just God,
Disguised as the darkness at night.

 

A New Dawn


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Step after step,
We walk ahead,
Learn what we must,
And move on ahead.

Bleeding from our eyes,
And crying from our hearts,
We move away from life,
With a smile and nothing else.

Scars hidden deep down,
Hidden by layers of lies,
Only a smile to show for,
The broken spirit inside.

One face for the mirror,
Another one for the world,
We’re all just as broken,
As the glass beneath our feet that lies.

A clean white soul may arrive,
Such is our hope for redemption,
In our being we can’t deny,
The struggle for vindication.

The shackles of guilt may fall away,
The weight of betrayal may rise,
Half alive we can only pray,
For life to lose  its disguise.

Love believes its truth,
Is the only hope we live by,
Those who cant see it,
May in their own lies die.

One final time I close my eyes,
I’ll pray for a new beginning,
To wake up to the light,
Of a brand new dawn.

By Your Side


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Weary and wasted,
Is how I feel tonight,
And when I see you,
I lose the tired fight.

The light in the room,
It shines brighter,
For you’re there with me,
And my heart feels lighter.

I feel like me,
Just because you with me walk,
The way you look at me,
And the way your eyes talk.

The world seems happier,
When I look at you smile,
Though we’ve walked,
Together mile after mile.

I pray to God today,
That for as long as I’m alive,
And even when I’m gone,
May my love always be by your side.

Two Can Play That Game


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In my mind’s eye I see,
A life of compounded complexity,
Days in each other collide,
In no one can I now confide.

Running through life,
Leaving all behind,
Yet waiting for you,
All this I wish you knew.

On the sidelines of my life,
I stand and look at myself,
All I can see in my heart,
Is the longing for a fresh start.

In the blink of an eye,
All the colors change,
And once again I’m lost,
And my heart’s encased in frost.

Friends have fallen away,
Foes have taken me in their embrace,
Family seems to flee,
And I want you with me.

Life is shorter than I thought,
Seems like just yesterday,
Was our story’s start,
When nothing could keep us apart.

Blessed be our younger selves,
For wiser still they had been,
To pause and drink in the love,
Their minds as free as a dove.

As I walk away from the memory,
Step after step in a new direction,
I wish it was towards you that I came,
Just so you know, two can play that game.