Soldier of Love.

So I was thinking about us the other day,

Was on my way back from work,

This is what I had always dreamed of,

For us, this job was only another perk.

 

I’d fought for a while now,

And you’d help me gear up,

For the battle of convention,

Was no storm in a teacup.

 

You and I together hustled,

To overcome this last hurdle,

Lest we anger or upset,

The hand that rocks the cradle..

 

Right before we reached the finishing line,

In the last leg of this race,

I stumbled and fell over my feet,

And you silently backed away from the disgrace.

 

Shocked as I am on my own misjudgment,

A little voice in my head chants,

That it takes two to tango,

To master it, we’d worked hard as ants.

 

Feel as lonely as does an island,

In this world of targets and goals,

You were always my only aim,

Now saying your name is like swallowing coals.

 

I’m deafened by the screaming voices,

That rile up my silent mind,

Whenever I think about our downfall,

I wonder if it was fate being cruel or kind.

 

We’re only human, is what I tell myself,

Trying to justify and comprehend,

This is beyond me as well,

I tried desperately, but failed to make amends.

 

Enough is enough, the reader must say,

This woman is quite obsessed,

Either in love with the pain or its cause,

I’d say both have me equally possessed.

 

Just a bit of a warning to you love,

I just might be on to your plan,

Your next steps I might have guessed,

You’ve failed the test of a true man.

 

Forgiveness is at the very heart of love,

I wonder where your’s went for a walk,

We forgave and always forgot,

Tell me, were those promises just written in chalk?

 

This and all else I did for you,

My city, home, life et all,

You found it surprisingly easy to retreat,

Maybe you couldn’t hear the crash of my fall.

 

Since what you pushed for,

You don’t want anymore,

I shall find another who does,

And let your love be washed ashore.

 

Be careful what you wish for,

Is a lesson well learnt from you,

Your mad dash from a wish’s realization,

Has given me a well needed clue.

 

One that I have studied and filed away,

If you ever return to me in the future,

I’ll remember this fact and brace myself,

That heartache is your regular feature.

 

I thought I was giving us a part of our dreams,

Who knew your life’s ambition never lied with me,

All my sweat and blood amounted to nothing,

I guess sacrifice in any form aint your cuppa tea.

 

I bid farewell to us today sweetheart,

May my silence be your constant companion,

I’ll keep just this pain with me,

Just another soldier in my personal battalion.