I’ve been waiting all this time,
For someone to show me the sun,
For that to come back, which is mine.
In the bottomless sea of sorrow i drown,
Wasted limbs, and a wasted life,
Weigh me down into the deep,
And i succumb to the stab of your knife.
This pain has met me before,
But never with such unforgiving violence,
I have no fear, or fight left in me now,
And so i give in, in silence.
Is it me, or is cold in this furnace?
The fire of your words, has left me frozen,
The more i insist, the more determined you are,
So a path in life, without me, you seem to have chosen.
I begged and pleaded to you, my dear,
Knowing that the folly is mine, and you are giving me what i asked,
To forgive me for not being brave enough,
To face what was always in my heart.
Two pieces of me there now exist,
One went with you, incomplete but at peace,
The other demands for retribution against itself,
And from its own life sentence, release.
Love, can be so bloody daunting,
It makes you dance to its wicked song,
Untill you can’t live without the bittersweet pain,
And then it goes away, taking all that is you along.
You will continue to care, i know,
But my words will hold you back,
I will continue to hurt, I know,
In the onslaught of your silent attack.
I’ve put you through a lot, my love,
Your time to rest has arrived,
It couldn’t have been easy to be with me,
What with my arrogance and foolish pride.
I have paid the price for my deeds,
In more ways that you should know about,
And if being away from you wasn’t bad enough,
Myself too, now I must live without.
Strange the way heartbreak will eat at you,
Alone in a busy and bustling crowd,
With friends who search for the girl they knew,
And suffocated alone, in your home’s lonely shroud.
Tears flow freely and unannounced,
Memories get sharper, with each passing day,
You said, it’ll get easier, let time work its magic,
I guess you were wrong, true love goes the other way.
Whenever and if you wish to return,
You’ll find my doors wide open,
I’ll still be waiting, like I am today,
But you’ll find me even more broken.
I’ll refrain from calling you back,
For the girl you loved has long since passed,
At least the pain of death ends eventually,
The ugly truth of your absence, will remain always, unasked.